It is Official

Well it is official, I am married. It was a great day! I will start with Friday. All lot of people came on Thursday and Friday. The down side on all of it was the unfortunate time spend at Sam's Club and Walmart to get food items. My dad and the boys were hard at work roasting the hog and setting up, while Becky and I made 9 batches of yummy brownies. The "theme" for Friday nights hog roast was all local food. The hog was from down the road, the corn was Olathe Sweet Corn, the cole slaw was made from cabbage from the neighbor's garden, and the beans were homemade by a good friend (I don't know where the beans came from :) ). The recipe for the brownies originated with one of grandma's oldest friends. It was a great night. There were around 100 people and there were quite a few people that got to come Friday and not Saturday. There was the normal group playing their guitars and normal "East Mesa" fun :) Then Saturday started with us meeting first thing in the morning to set up the chairs and sound system and have a rehearsal. The afternoon flew by and before I knew it we were running late and flying down the road to drop off the Bronco (hide it) and get to the ceremony to get dressed and start photos. I got ready in about 15 minutes (my hair was done thank goodness). I walked out to start photos and Rusty saw me and I thought that I might have to do the Heimlich b/c he choked and almost started to cry when he saw me. It was GREAT!! We got pictures started and thankfully got all of the family pictures done before the ceremony b/c the kids were not having pictures after. The ceremony was perfect. There was a huge storm coming and right when everything got started and the wind started blowing and I thought we might get slammed, but it stayed right there and the wind calmed down. It was like God was saying I am right here, holding back the storm. The ceremony went without a glitch. The funniest thing was Rusty's 3 year old niece throughout the ceremony would go in front of everyone to sit on a rock and could not be bothered by her dress so hiked it up for everyone to see. Priceless :) The reception was great. The food was great and I had friends from work do all the serving and they did awesome. Instead of wedding cake, we had cheesecake and there were incredible looking. We danced and chatted. The night went quickly but it wasn't stressful and I enjoyed every minute of it. The only thing is that I wish everyone could have been there :)

10 YEARS

So this last weekend I went to my ten year class reunion in Brush, CO. I hadn't been in my home town since about 2000. The nice thing about that area of the country is that it doesn't change drastically unlike the Western part of Colorado. I really had a good time seeing everyone and catching up with classmates. Those are some of the only people in your life that you really know their families, their parents, their siblings. It was a very validating experience. It was a little surreal not being recognized by people even though you feel that you haven't changed that much. It is great to be told that you look great and to be around the people that used to accentuate your insecurities and have them now validate your security in yourself. It was just a real confirmation that I have really changed and I am not the person that left Brush, CO ten years ago. I am more fully who I am now, if that makes any sense at all :)

Other news, I have 2.5 weeks before the wedding day. I am getting excited. I am looking forward to seeing family and friends and having a good time. I am looking forward to the preparation and seeing how things turn out. I am looking forward to who actually comes and who doesn't. I am looking forward to what makes the day unique from others, what good stories are going to come about. I am looking forward to being "officially" married and being able to enter into the transition of marriage fully.

Well, enough for now.

Man, Life has hit worp speed!

So life has gotten very busy very quickly. I started a new position at work two weeks ago. I love it!!! It is M-F, regular 40 hour week with no on-call. I have my weekends off and paid holidays. YIPEEE!! Granted I don't have my week off, but I am so thankful for a regular set schedule that I can make plans around. I am the intake/access clinician at the Center for Mental Health. I am really the gatekeeper for people that are wanting to get mental health treatment at the Center. I will also have my own clients eventually, which will be great experience.

The wedding plans are going well. Thankfully that has not been stressful other than figuring out how to pay for it. But that will get taken care of over time. Rusty and I are doing great! We are doing a parenting class and also pre-marital counseling. We really like the pre-marital counseling. We are ready for the parenting class to be done. It is done through the department of health and human services and has much to be desired (in my clinical opinion ;) ).

We are trying to stay focused on our relationship and our hope is to have a fun get together that is called a wedding that we get to enjoy our friends and family.

I do have some prayer requests. The first is that you would pray for Rusty's son Blake. We have been having trouble with his mother and had to go to a lawyer in order to submit a parenting plan to the court so that she could not change visitation on a whim. That has been one of the most stressful things I have ever been through. Second, for our families that they will be able to let go and transition through this time of change. Third, Rusty has a job interview tomorrow for a much better job. We are praying that he gets it and can leave where he is working. It is just an unhealthy business that has unhealthy business practices.

Thanks!!! I hope that I get to see some of you this summer in Colorado!!!

More later...Laura

I am engaged!

Well life has taken another large turn. But man this is a turn that I have been waiting for a LONG TIME! I am not sure where to begin other than God is amazing!!!!! Rusty and I started dating on February 14. Our first date we went out to lunch and ended up talking for four hours. We went out a few more times and then I took him to Durango to meet my dad and help with a building project Dad was working on. After that weekend, we have been pretty inseperable. A few weeks ago, we were taking our daily walk and Rusty asked me if I saw us together forever and I could say without a doubt that I could. Well, this weekend my sister and Dad came up for a visit. Rusty was able to talk with my dad and proposed to my on Saturday afternoon in my Grandmother's kitchen. We were alone and he just couldn't wait any longer and he got down on one knee and asked if I would marry him. Of course, I said YES! We went into the Den and told my Dad and sister, both of whom where shocked! Then his family, who already knew what he was going to do, came over for dinner and we were all able to celebrate. It was cool b/c Saturday was his grandparents wedding aniversary.

His family and my family are very excited. I am surprised at how fast it happened but I don't feel like we are rushing anything. It is so weird. All the little details that were orchestrated by God for us to meet and the little details that were answered for us to fit together is mind boggling. I met Rusty b/c his mother is my supervisor at work. His sister also works in the same office. It is funny b/c it took him about six months to work up the courage to ask me out :) God had really been working in his heart and brought us together at just the right time in his walk and in mine. We both love the outdoors and being active. He is very handy around the house and you all know my propensity toward manual labor :) He has a three year old son but he is a good dad and love kiddos. We started going to a good church in town and started going to a small group of four other couples. The timing on everything has been perfect.

I am so excited about the future and excited to share this fun time and transition with all of you. I promise I will post a picture as soon as I get one and figure out how to post it :)

More details to come...

How quickly things can change...

Well, in the last month things have definitely taken a turn. Thankfully I can say that they are all very good turns. I am just amazed at how quickly life can change and switch directions. You spend so much time thinking things are never going to change and then voila! things change. I think one can only appreciate the amazingness of this when you contemplate the amazingness of God and how intimately and intricately He is involved in each individual life.

The first turn that has happened is that God brought a man into my life. Talk about shift in thinking. It is a new relationship, but the more we are together the more we want to be together and so I am feeling pretty darn good about it. That in and of itself is amazing. This relationship is not stressful. It isn't hard work. We just enjoy each other. I am almost worried b/c it is too easy. Silly :)

The second interesting turn is that I met my "boyfriend" b/c he is my supervisor's son at work. Minor complication. So b/c of that and b/c we are getting more serious I have applied for another position at my job. This job would be a normal schedule with the perks of paid holidays and paid vacation. It would include me doing more intensive clinic work with clients as well as doing intakes for people that are wanting mental health services. What is funny about this is that this position is perfect for me, but I would have never applied for it if God hadn't brought someone new into my life. His plan is perfect and his timing is perfect and I hope that I am continually amazed by how personal he is and how close he is.

That is the latest. FYI the weather has been BEAUTIFUL and I am ecstatic!

It's snowing, again!

We have had a week of really nice weather and today it started snowing. I am instantly disheartened. I want it to get warm so bad! I keep reminding myself everyday that the days are only getting longer and are only going to get warmer (sort of).

I did get to enjoy the winter weather a few weeks ago. A friend from Germany came and spent the week with me. We spent four days skiing the slopes at three different ski resorts. We went to two different natural hot springs and took two snow shoeing expeditions. We had a great time enjoying God's creation and each others company. She is one that just enjoys every little detail of life and takes tons of pictures. We drove probably seven hundred miles in five days in just Western Colorado. It was great!

Please forgive me for the randomness, but lately I have been contemplating the season of Lent and why we celebrate it and how it is celebrated. It has been very interesting. I have been contemplating how I can celebrate this season. It is a season that symbolizes so many things. It symbolizes Jesus' journey to the cross and the celebration of his life and the overcoming of sin. It is a season of reflection to recognize how our own sin instigated that journey and how we are on that journey ourselves. It is a season of renewal, recognizing the new life that we have, seeing spring in our own spirits were there is new growth showing after a season of winter. It is a season of refocusing of what is important and kind of doing spring cleaning in our hearts, minds, and spirits. I had never really put much thought into this tradition and season until this year, but now that I have I am again reminded of the amazing love of our Father, the incredible sacrifice of Jesus, and the amazing gift of the Holy Spirit. I have of late really been reconciling myself to my own weakness and vulnerability. My own humanness scares me. But God, is my strength. He defends me. He protects me. He is dependable and trustworthy.

I pray that all of us in this time of reflecting on the journey of Jesus to the cross are further reconciled to who we are and who God is and who we are in Him.

Love to all,
Laura

Just an Update

Well, the holiday season is over. Although you wouldn't tell it by my house b/c I have yet to take the Christmas decorations down. I think that I am not going to get in a hurry about it either. This years holiday season would be rated as fair to good. Grandma and I made it to Denver for Christmas squeezing in between the two gigantic snow storms. Don't get me wrong I had my fair share of horrible traffic and bad roads, but not unbearable. I sure was glad to get back over the mountain where the pace is a bit slower and there are far fewer people :) My favorite present this year was a heated mattress pad, Divine!, and a warm, cute hat to keep my head warm in the subarctic weather.

For New Year's Eve, I took the day off from work and went snow shoeing. We walked for about six miles. It was fun but heaven's my body was feeling it. I do love snow shoeing. Then that night I went with some friends to a New Year's party where I learned to Black Jack and danced in the New Year. I am always amazed at my difficiancy with number. Really, is it so hard to count to 21? I sure think so :) On New Year's day, I hybernated in my room under a heated blanket and really tried to reflect on the year past and what I want in the present year. It was so refreshing to journal again. I haven't done it in so long.

God has really been reminding me here lately that He is my first love. That he is the source of all of my needs and He is sufficiant. What a good reminder. What a refreshing reminder. He really is good!!!

Some fun highlights of the last few weeks were: throwing a good friend a birthday bash with enchiladas, margaritas, and homemade carrot cake. It was so fun! I love cooking and throwing parties. Who knew :) ; my dad coming to visit over the weekend and just hanging out watching football, reading books and making Chili; and awaiting future adventures to come in the new year.

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!!

I don't know about you but Christmas has gotten here very quickly and I feel like it will be here and gone and I won't know what happened. I hope that I can enjoy the time with friends and family and cherish the little moments that make this season special. It definitely takes a conscious effort.

I will be going to Denver for Christmas. I will drive me and Grandma over the mountain on Christmas Eve to spend it with my mom, her husband, my sister, and her boyfriend. I hope that the roads are clear by then. I find it very funny that the snow storm in Denver has gotten so much news and publicity. It is not so unusual for it to Blizzard like that. Things must be slow on the news front. It will definitely be a white Christmas for the state of Colorado. As much as I dislike driving in the snow and bad roads, I do like it when snow is blanketing the ground for Christmas. I definitely helps the mood :)

I pray that you all have a wonderful Christmas with friends and family. I pray that we are all reminded of the love, mercy, and grace of Christ as we celebrate His coming to us. I pray that His love will fill your hearts and that you will continually be filled with his Spirit throughout this New Year we are embarking upon.

Love and Hugs to you all.

Thankful on Thanksgiving

I found that there was a lot to be thankful for this Thanksgiving.

So here is my list: 1) God's provision: I was able to make Thanksgiving dinner and had the money to buy all the food and not stress 2) all the fam made it: mom and Al, Becky and her boyfriend, and my dad! 3) Al made it through the holidays and interacted more with us than ever before (miracle)! 4) amazing community of people (5 or 6 families came together on Thanksgiving and ate together) 5) A God that is in everything, who is faithful and good, and listens with perfect love and answers with our ultimate best at heart.

I wonder often why it is so hard to really tap into the essence of the holidays that we celebrate. It is so easy to go through the motions and lose sight of why we are doing what we are doing. When that happens the magic of the holidays is lost. In my job I have found that it is not always useful to focus on the "why". Like why did this happen to that person or why is this person the way that they are. It is much better to focus with people on "what and how". What is helping, how is your behavior helping or hindering you, what can we do to help right now. But with the holidays, I think it is important to ask why. Why are things important to us? I think sometimes understanding the "why" helps us to move into the "what and hows". So I guess the questions I keep asking myself are "how am I going to make this holiday season meaningful and not just go through the motions?" and "what does a meaningful holiday season look like?". Hmm....thoughts to ponder.

The Latest

Well, on Friday my grandmother tripped and fell and gave herself a black eye on the right, cut her left ear, and hurt her left knee. To say the least it was quite a spill and was quite a scare. Praise God, she didn't break anything or crack her head open. But due to severely bruising her knee, she was pretty immobile Friday night and all day Saturday. Through this little episode, I realized a few things. I truly realized how independence can be taken to an extreme. My grandma wouldn't let me help her up even. I had to become bossy and strict in order for her to sit down and let me do stuff. Somehow, my grandmother was bossy, demanding, and independent all at the same time.

This I do know. God has me living with her for a reason. I think that one of the biggest reasons is to work on my heart. My grandma can get under my skin and tick me off faster than anyone in my life. I wanted to help her, but when you feel like you have to fight to do it, you start to resent what they ask you to do. It is so hard to have a servant heart when you feel like what you are doing is wrong and you are treated like you don't know anything. With my grandma, I know that she doesn't mean to come across that way, but the way that she says stuff and the tone of her voice evokes feelings that go against reasoning.

Here are some conclusions that I ended the weekend with: you have to let the person be (if they insist on doing things that are not the best, you have to let them deal with the consequences); it is essential to ask for help and let others help you (that is the beauty of interdependence); and
we have to take care of ourselves body, mind, and spirit (quality if far better than quantity).

On a more positive note, I did get to go visit a church that I think I will like. What I need most right now is good peer Christian fellowship. I am hoping that by finding a different church that I will find that. I know that it is not going to be like The Grove and the small groups will not be like my community group, of which I am missing a ton, but I have to put forth the effort of building new relationships keeping in check my expectations, knowing that I can not recreate the past, but trusting in my God that He can do far more than I can ask or imagine.

The journey of life is funny that way. The flesh wants it to be easy and recreatable, but the spirit knows that is not what is best and so hence forth we go on our adventure just waiting to see what is around the bend or over the mountain. How thankful I am that I have learned to trust in God and His character to know that He is going to bring about my best.

Thoughts

These last few weeks I have had a lot of time to talk with friends and contemplate the direction of my life. On my mind, as of late, has been my single hood and my ideas about dating. I feel like I am going through a paradigm shift. My great wish is that I could get in the minds of men. I go through stages and right now I am going through my stage of what in the world is wrong with me. If I could somehow figure out my flaws then maybe I would at least have some male friends. I am getting to the point where I just want to do a random survey. How sad is it to wish that there is a flaw because then it can be fixed, but what if there is nothing to be done and I am stuck here. Frightful!! I want to blame it on my weight and the shallowness of men, but alas I think that I am off base. Even though I do believe that my believe about my weight and how I perceive myself affects how others see me. Am I destined to be single? Is there someone out there for me to share life with? What am I going to do if I get to be 35 and exactly the same place that I was when I was 23? Will I keep trusting God with all of it and leaning on His Goodness? I pray so!!!

New Adventures

Well it is afficial, my dad is moving down to Arizona. I helped him move some of his stuff this weekend. I can't believe it, but it had been fifteen years since I had been to my Grandpa's house in Arizona. YIKES!! I stayed with my Grandpa and a friend from Germany that was visiting for a few days. We had a good time.

Highlights: talking with Suzanne, frying fish and making coleslaw, German beer (so good), looking at pictures, laughing, listening to my Grandpa's generations music, rock hunting in the middle of nowhere and getting a flat tire, Suzanne and I taking a run around St. Johns, flying home with Suzanne as the pilot and Grandpa as copilot, eating breakfast at Starvin' Arvins with Grandpa, Suzanne, Dad, and Norma (stepdaughter of Grandpa's) and savering syrup drenched pancakes, taking Suzanne to hog farm and picking green beans, watching them take off from the airport and knowing that they know that I love them dearly.

So know, I am planning at trip for next October to visit Suzanne in Germany and celebrate Oktoberfest. I am excited!!!! Also am contemplating getting my pilot's license. It would make it much easier to visit all the people that I love. I don't know, but it is an idea :)

Tough Week

So, I just got a trailer full of stuff from my dad. It included all of the antiques that we grew up with and other miscellaneous items like our old toys, books from childhood, etc. I also had to move my stuff that doesn't fit in my grandmother's house (which is almost everything) b/c my stuff was taking up too much space where it was. This experience has been one of the most frustrating times thus far in my life for a number of reasons. Reason #1: I should not be responsible for this stuff yet. I want the stuff but the timing is way off. Divorce SUCKS!! Reason #2: Both my parents don't want the stuff but still feel obligated to tell me what I need to do with it. I think that when you give stuff up that you negate the right to have an opinion about it. Reason #3: I had to get friends of ours to help me to get the stuff up here and to unload b/c my dad was too busy. I HATE having to get other people involved in my problems and this was one problem that I could do nothing about. All the stuff was too big for me to move around. Reason #4: My grandmother has a house full of crap and won't get rid of anything, but yet I had to move my stuff again so that she could get to boxes that are full of junk that she hasn't even thought about in probably 15 years and then she acts concerned about my stuff. AHHHH!!!! Then she couldn't understand why I was frustrated and wouldn't quit bugging me. To say the least we had a meeting of the minds. Reason #5: I have all of this stuff that I would love to be able to use and I have no where to go with it. I am having to store everything and that bugs me (for reasons that I have yet to sort out).

But on a lighter note: I had three friends tell me that they are expecting new additions to their families. Yeah!! Another baby boom! I am seriously getting way behind in the maturity transitions. I seem to be stuck in the out of college transition. Now I am getting worried that I have been single for so long that I won't be able to make the transition to anything else. I am sure glad that the Lord is patient and loves me without conditions b/c at times I am a tough case :)

Oh how I love WATER!!

Last week I got to spend three days on Lake Powell in Utah on a houseboat. It is a beautiful place with lots of rock structures. I got to enjoy two absolutely beautiful sunrises and got to swim in water for hours at a time. I also tried to water ski. It was not pretty, but I did get standing a couple of times. It is humbling not to be able to do something when you try. I met a couple really neat couples. One couple was a retired National Guard Sargeant who is now living out his hippy days :) He has a long beard and long hair and is on a crash course of learning to be chill and play with all the toys (fishing, guitar, etc.) that he has accumulated over the years. His wife is a geologist for the National Guard and a hip fifty something lady. The other couple was a classmate of my mother's and a former student of my Grandmother (weird) but he had probably 6-10 fishing poles on his boat and enjoying the heck out of getting to fish at anytime, anywhere and his wife had a really quick sense of humor so we spend a lot of the time laughing and enjoying good food. Now I am back and working. I can't even begin to express how thankful I am to have the job I have right now that allows me to have time to go on these little adventures and enjoy God's creation.

Hunting for mushrooms

So this weekend, I did some stuff I had never done. First, I helped butcher and dress chickens. I helped get the feathers off and get them ready to freeze. I learned how to cut them up in proper parts. I know that is sounds gross and it did smell at times, but I don't get freaked out by that kind of stuff and I like learning how to do it like they did "in the old days". Second, I went hunting for the King Boletus mushroom. The most sought after mushroom in the world. It is huge and it is edible. So we went tromping through the woods about an hour and half away from my house for these mushrooms. We found some. I had no idea that there were so many differnt kinds of mushrooms. There are mushrooms that look like coral. WEIRD!! Anyway, I pulled off some recipes from the internet and cooked up my wild mushrooms. It was a great time, but not something one thinks to do on a Sunday morning :)

Good week of randomness

Well this last week has been good, but random. I started out by going to my dad's b/c my aunt and uncle were visiting from Pennsylvania. My grandpa came up from Arizona. On Friday, I got to go horseback riding and flyfishing with my dad and uncle and some really neat teenage girls. They were so refreshing and gave me hope for the future generation. It was great, I practiced my flyfishing technique, I finally got to where I could get the line out in the river and not get snaged. It was a major feet :) I got to ride horses, which I LOVE and I got to just sit out in God's beauty and be amazed. Doesn't get much better than that! Then the next day, I got to just hang out with my grandpa, just the two of us and hear stories. It was great. Then Sunday, my grandpa celebrated his 88 birthday. YIKES! We had friends come over and had hamburgers. I made a cake and made homemade icing. It turned out great! It was the first b-day cake my grandpa had had in 50 years. So needless to say he was super blessed and I had a great time.

Next, I drove to see Becky in the Springs and that was good to see her and her new apartment and spend some more time getting to know her boyfriend. I got to spend some time with college friends, both married and one just had a baby in June (so cute!). Then I headed up to Denver to see my second parents, who had just gotten back from a month in Europe (so jealous).

Anyway, here are the really random things. First, I got to talk with one of my best friends from High School, who found me from my blog. CRAZY! I hadn't talked with her in probably 7 or 8 years. It was great catching up. Second, my "second parents" went to a conference in Norway (For Iranian Christians) and met this guy. He is a Dentist in Sweden. Anyway, they were talking and a lot of the men over there made the comment that the Iranian women in Europe were only concerned with how much money they made and what they could buy them. Cathy and Bahram proceeded to tell them about me and how that was not the case. Well, this gentleman wanted to meet me and so Cathy called me and told me about him and gave me his email address. So know I am corresponding with a 38 year old Iranian Dentist, who lives in Sweden. Now, you can't get much more random than that.

Oh, how life is funny and I mean both haha and weird!

Turning 80

This weekend we celebrated my grandmother's 80th birthday. It was quite the time. The festivities really started when my aunt and uncle from California arrived. My aunt, a Methodist Minister, and my uncle, a school bus driver, mensa member, who is now an autoharp player and teacher. They are the epitomy of going against the mold. Then on Friday, my grandmother's two sisters and brother arrived along with a great nephew who has reactive attachment disorder and ADD, my mom and Al, and my sister. It was a house full to be sure. Let me try to paint you a picture of my family. My grandmother and her sisters along with my aunt and my mother are sitting around the table everyone talking expressing opinions, and reminincing. My grandmothers brother is sitting outside with Al, drinking a beer (# who knows what). Al is sitting outside messing with his guitar and still yet to speak to my sister or I or look us in the eye (The cause of that behavior is a whole other story) The 12 year old who has ADD, has had a fit already about how he is bored and everyone is being selfish b/c he is not getting to do anything. He has gone through every room in the house and been told no possibly 100 times. Good times :)

Surprisingly, the time went great. Grandma had a big celebration on Saturday, where the whole neighborhood got together plus family to eat brauts and sweet corn, play music and just enjoy community and life. My mother and her sister got along better than I had ever seen before, my aunt and uncle got to know my sister better, there was much less competition and more laughing. I am happy to say that the 80th birthday went without a hitch and grandma was totally blessed and I feel that everyone got to know each other that much better. The only bummer is that Al left without speaking to my sister or I or having any contact with us. It is a sad situation, but I am glad that everyone knows what is going on and there are no secrets. Please pray for my mom and her marriage, things are getting worse instead of better and we are all concerned. Until next time...

Finally settling in

Well, I finally got my bed put together and some of my stuff actually organized. I had procrastinated for almost a month b/c it was all just too overwhelming. My grandmother's house is filled to the brim with crap (she is a depression baby) so therefore I have no where to go with mine :)

I don't know if you all struggle with this, but I find that when there is so much to do and you don't know where to start that you just don't do anything. Why is it that when we get overwhelmed that we become so tired and lazy which only make the problem worse? It is so much better to just carve out little chunks of time and do what you can and pretty soon it is done and you can go to the next project. It is not so hard, but the mind can play tricks in more ways than one.

I have none of my nicknacks unpacked and all the walls are still bare, which is very unusual for me. This is the most elongated transition that I have ever had but taking it little by little is helping my sanity and allowed me to get some good fiction read. You know it is all about priorities :)

Working Girl

Well I have put in two full weeks at my new job and so far so good. Each person that is in need of services has a different story and has different ways of coping. The human psyche is incredible. The thing I am amazed at is people's resiliancy despite some horrific circumstances.

I had one client say "I don't want to die, but I don't want to live" and she asked if that made sense. In some ways it makes perfect sense, but is paradoxical at the same time. How does life get so overwhelming that one cannot deal with the reality of it anymore. The thing about it is it is not ever all one person's fault. It is the acumulation of sin from the time of Eden that adds up to the experiences of people today. You want so much to snap your fingers and make it all better, but it took so much to get to this point how are we going to turn the tide to make it better.

Got a client, got to go!

Kelli

Kelli that is my fleece vest :)