13 and 14 months

13 months old (trying to type on the computer)

I love my baths

Easter 2010- digging into my Easter basket

This is how I drive my cars (add car noises)

I got a hold of a roll of papertowel (damage done in about 5 minutes)

Family trip to the Denver Zoo (first time for JT, Blake and Rusty)

First haircut (unsure of what I think about this)

Decided that I was having a good time

14 months old

Avoiding walking for mommy and knowing I am cute

I realized that I have been neglecting my duties and gotten behind.  Much has happened in the last several months.  The big milestones that we are excited to announce is that J.T. started walking on June 10th.  He of course started walking at daycare and does it sparingly at home.  He would much rather have mommy's finger and have her walk with him :)   He can say kitty and has siren noises perfected.  He will wave by-bye to his daddy and say by-by dad (well kind of).  He has started clapping and saying yay and blowing kisses.  He is also perfecting having fits (which his mother is not thrilled about).  He is not afraid to let you know when he is displeased with something.  He also is perfecting the "my heart is broken b/c you told me no" look and cry loudly.  In the last two months, he had to change daycares and that was sad but he seems to be adjusting well.  He has gone through periods of only wanting mommy and here lately has had periods when he only wanted daddy (which was really cute and made Rusty feel like a million dollars).  The end of May, we got to go to Denver and see my mom and go to the Denver Zoo and also attend a wedding of old friends from my hometown.  Both boys did great traveling.  Also in May, we got to go to Durango for a short visit but unfortunately I did not take any pictures of that excursion.  Other news, is that Rusty had a close call.  He was driving home from Grand Junction late and fell asleep at the wheel.  He rolled the van twice and was so fortunate to not even have a scratch or bruise on him.  The police officer said that if he hadn't had his seatbelt on that he would most likely have been killed b/c the passenger side door came open.  So needless to say the van is totaled but that is really immaterial compared to the alternative.  We were fortunate to buy a little commuter car from a co-worker of my mine that Rusty is really enjoying b/c it has a bike rack on the top.  We are also trying to get my little Ford Focus up and running again so that we can park the Bronco and save on some gas.  We are enjoying the summer season.  Blake is doing coach pitch softball and also started in Cub Scouts.  So he and Rusty are getting to spend more time together and enjoying themselves.  I am enjoying having my mom here for the summer and hanging out with her when we can.  Anna is growing bigger and bigger.  We got results from the amniocentesis and everything looks good.  She does have the balanced translocation like I do but that only means she might have some difficulty with miscarriages when she gets older like her mommy.  I am at 24 weeks and this pregnancy seems to be going quicker and I am feeling really good.  I think that is the long and the short of what is going on up to know.

My Baby is One Year Old!!!

Fist birthday cake before

During

And the aftermath

Getting ready for his party at Rusty's parent's house

Opening b-day presents

Much less interested in this cake then the last one

My first attempt at making the birthday cake

Taking a cruise in my new car

Driving along in my automobile :)

Well my baby in now one year old.  He enjoyed his first birthday cake on his birthday.  The next day though he got the flu and so did not get to enjoy his other birthday cake.  He is not walking yet but likes to walk things and prefers to climb up on things rather than sit around.  He is saying "uh-oh" and makes siren noises when he is playing with a police car at daycare.  He is perfecting his fit throwing (not so impressive) but at least is responding to no (rather than smiling and continuing to do what he is not supposed to).  He continues to be a delight and a great baby.  He has graduated to sleeping in his crib upstairs for most of the night.  He is a good eater and wants to eat whatever mom is.  Now that he is one there is a whole new world of foods he is going to get to try.  He is now 30 inches long and weighs around 19 pounds.  He is tall and slendor.  It seems that he inherited that from both his grandpas b/c neither Rusty nor I are slendor :)  We are looking forward to more birthdays to come and watching him grow.  Next week we are going to get to find out what the sex of his new sibling will be.  I am pretty excited to find out.  I will keep you posted.

10 and 11 months

Enjoying my walker

Walking in my walker

Now walking my walker

Mom, here I come

Mom, I really want the camera, please!!!

Becoming very proficient at feeding myself



My favorite thing is to play with my spoon and bowl and drum



Sorry for the delayed updates on pictures.  I realized that the reason for my lack of energy and focus was due to another little baby growing in my tummy.  That is right JT is going to be a big brother but not that much bigger, only about 18 months bigger.  We are excited and he will never know the difference:)  He is busy as ever.  He loves walking things around like the desk chair, his walker, and his toy he got for Christmas.  He loves all food.  We haven't found anything yet that he won't eat especially if mom is trying to eat it.  At daycare, he has started making car noises and siren noises when he is playing with them.  He loves to laugh at the other kids and they laugh at him about as much.  He has started to be more cuddly and when he hugs you he will pat your back.  Very sweet!  I can't believe in a few short weeks he will be one year old.  Time flies when you have kids that is all I have to say.  I think when the next one comes I might feel that I am in a timewarp.



Addendum to previous blog

I found this on another blog today and thought how appropriate.  I need to keep this close to remind myself.

Remembering thankfulness

I just got done reading my friend Jill's blog @ http://www.durangopalmers.blogspot.com/ .  She had a great post about having a change of heart and remembering to be thankful.  This is ironic b/c last night I had another conversation with myself about the frustration of wants.  I don't know about you guys but it gets pretty frustrating when you work and still can't do the things that you really want to do.  I think sometimes we get disillusioned b/c as growing up you think when I get a "good" job then I can start traveling or I can get _____ that I have always wanted.  Wrong!!!  For some that may be true but for us that has not been the case.

I find that I have to constantly remind myself that we have enough.  I am thankful for a home and the means to keep all the utilities on.  But then frustration creeps in b/c we don't have room for a dining room table or to store our stuff at our home.  Then you start asking God, why does it have to be so complicated.  I am thankful for my job and that it provides for the family but then I start wondering why I feel so stuck at this particular job and wondering if it is adding to my life or taking away.  Then I find that I get resentful towards it b/c it takes away from my time with my family.  You know in your head and heart that God is providing but you see others getting new clothes or new cars or going somewhere and you wonder.  I often think to myself if my client's realize that all the clothes that I am wearing to work are either gifts or hand me downs.  I find it ironic at times.

I think the dilemma that we face is that we are told to dream.  We are told that the sky is the limit.  So you dream and then life happens.  It is hard to remember to stay thankful during those times of struggle.  It is hard to remember to be thankful when you feel like you are being picked on.  It is hard not to get resentful when you want to go do something "fun" and realize that you don't have enough gas in the car.

But the thing about it is you can stay thankful.  You can keep prospective even in America.  You can be content even when you live without surplus.  I have found that I have been more content in this season that in times before even though now I have much more at stake in regards to responsibilities.  It is ok.  God has a plan.  God knows our needs and our desires.  I know that someday I will have a home that we can have guests and we can sit around the table to have meals. I know that someday that God will make a way for me to stay home with my children or at least have more flexibility in a job.  And in knowing, I can remember thankfulness in the present.

Thinking...

So if you noticed I changed the title of my blog.  I have been reading more blogs and they all seem to be mom's that are staying home with their children and homeschooling or something else.  I know that I have written about this before but I feel like my side of the story is lost.  I feel that there is this assumption that if you are working and a mother that it was your choice and that you are choosing your "career" over your children especially in Christian circles.  I would like to set the record straight.  I would just like to say that most of the working mother's that I know it is b/c they have to not because they want to.  Sure I could choose to quit my job but that would mean going onto welfare, foreclosing on our home, food stamps, and medicaid.  To me that is not much of a choice and not teaching my children the values that we hold dear.

So for you working mother's out there, I am there with you.  You are not alone.  You are not any less of a mother b/c you are working and you are no less of a Christian.  We as working mother's have very little support.  We don't have time.  We are not affording mother's day out, MOPS or any of the other activities that are scheduled during the work week. You are not failing if you can't keep the house clean, the laundry done, and cook dinner every night.  It does feel like we are barely keeping our heads above water but it will get better.  It will not always be like this.  One thing that I do realize is that when you are working, is that you cherish every second that you have with your child.  I never have the thought of needing a break and there is no way I am having my child go anywhere without me on the weekends.

Ok, that is enough of my soapbox right now but I feel that there is more to come...

Thankful Thursday

I have realized that I have not done this for several weeks.  There is much to be thankful for...

1) God's provision for us while Rusty is going back to school...we are still praying that he will find a part time job
2) Health...we all have remained healthy while a lot of yucky stuff is going around
3)Family...enjoyed being around family over the holidays and them stepping up to help us wherever they could

9 months old

It is hard to believe that he is nine months old.  As you can see, we are sitting pretty darn good.  We are busy crawling everywhere but still find it easier to be on our elbows rather than our hands.  He has just started pulling up on things and has figured out how to get his feet under him.  Just this morning, we had our first significant wreck from pulling up.  I have a feeling there is much of that to come.  He is saying Dada and Moma more consistantly.  We have the first signs of teeth trying to come through but on the top.  My mom is convinced this is a sign of him being left handed b/c it is backwards :)  He continues to be a happy, easy going little boy with a smile that melts your heart. His trick now is when you say no he turns and smiles.  All his dad can do is smile back, pick him up and give him a big kiss.  Can we say softey ;)  He continues to be a good eater and likes his veggies and fruit.

Sledding and horseback riding

I am not sure about this

Umm what is happening

Oh I think that this may be fun

I am still not sure about this but Dad had fun

Yeehaw

This is pretty darn fun

Can you tell me what we are doing?

Christmas 2010

Christmas Eve service

Santa is so generous

Look I got plastic to play with

Oh wait carboard is even better

Mom are you sure these are for you?

Watch out Super Mario

I love boxes

Thanks Santa

Rock on

Wait wrapping paper is the BEST

This was an attempt to see how much noise the wrapping paper would make

Thanks Grandpa for my blocks

Sweet an easel

Watch out!! Fully automatic means lots of bullets flying around my head